To do or not to do
Oct. 29th, 2024 02:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shivverI am very much on edge today. As I've said in the past couple of posts, I'm taking some time off, not searching for a job and catching up with life. It's been nice, though neither as fun nor productive as I'd hoped it would be, but of course, that's my fault.
On Friday, the director of the group I used to work for at my former company's client contacted me and said that one of their subsidiary companies is looking to contract an experienced QA analyst for two months, and he asked if I were interested. Yes, of course. So, I got to chat with the QA lead there and it looks like fine - they're in dire straits because they have a major software release in December and one of their people just got a new job - and now I'm waiting to hear back.
Of course I'm anxious to find out if I got the job, but I'm also edgy because I'm not sure I want it - I kinda want to have this time off. It'd be stupid to turn down two months of work and I could take the time off afterward, but I guess I'm just being kind of petulant, being upset about not getting it now now now.
Then today, the director mentioned above and I were chatting, and he said he's looking for a position for me at his company, probably not doing QA but still doing stuff I'm trained to do. It won't be soon, but still very possible.
It feels great to have two opportunities - one immediate and one possible - offered to me, because it helps me believe that I am actually good at my job and that people appreciate my work. However, the awful thing about this whole situation, and probably what has me on edge the most, is that I'm watching all of my former coworkers being unable to find work, and here I am, having these things thrown at me when I'm not even trying.
Back in May, when the client company reconfigured and dissolved our group, about 25 people were laid off, and then another 15 were laid off during two events since then. As of now, five months later, only three of the rest have managed to find jobs. The rest have been searching with no luck - sending out hundreds of applications and receiving no replies; only a few have even gotten to the interview stage.
And here I am getting two inquiries without even looking. It's actually making me nauseous thinking about it. I know, I shouldn't complain. But i just feel so bad.
On Friday, the director of the group I used to work for at my former company's client contacted me and said that one of their subsidiary companies is looking to contract an experienced QA analyst for two months, and he asked if I were interested. Yes, of course. So, I got to chat with the QA lead there and it looks like fine - they're in dire straits because they have a major software release in December and one of their people just got a new job - and now I'm waiting to hear back.
Of course I'm anxious to find out if I got the job, but I'm also edgy because I'm not sure I want it - I kinda want to have this time off. It'd be stupid to turn down two months of work and I could take the time off afterward, but I guess I'm just being kind of petulant, being upset about not getting it now now now.
Then today, the director mentioned above and I were chatting, and he said he's looking for a position for me at his company, probably not doing QA but still doing stuff I'm trained to do. It won't be soon, but still very possible.
It feels great to have two opportunities - one immediate and one possible - offered to me, because it helps me believe that I am actually good at my job and that people appreciate my work. However, the awful thing about this whole situation, and probably what has me on edge the most, is that I'm watching all of my former coworkers being unable to find work, and here I am, having these things thrown at me when I'm not even trying.
Back in May, when the client company reconfigured and dissolved our group, about 25 people were laid off, and then another 15 were laid off during two events since then. As of now, five months later, only three of the rest have managed to find jobs. The rest have been searching with no luck - sending out hundreds of applications and receiving no replies; only a few have even gotten to the interview stage.
And here I am getting two inquiries without even looking. It's actually making me nauseous thinking about it. I know, I shouldn't complain. But i just feel so bad.
